far from perfect

FAR FROM PERFECT

WE ALL HAVE FAULTS NO MATTER WHO WE ARE

& MEMORIES SOME OF WHICH WILL HAVE LEFT A SCAR

NONE OF US ARE PERFECT AND WE HAVE TO ACCEPT

ONLY PAIN WILL COME FROM THINGS BETTER, IN THE PAST KEPT

THE FEELING THAT WE WERE WRONGED & HARD DONE BY

LIVING A LIFE WHEN WE WOULD LAUGH LESS THAN WE WOULD CRY

THOUGHTS OF OTHERS FAVOURED MORE THAN OURSELVES

FEELING LIKE WE WERE REDUNDANT LEFT ON THE SHELVES

REALITY IS THAT NO ONE IS PERFECT AND LIFE IS NEVER EASY

IT’S NOT A CASE OF MILLS & BOON, EASY PEASY LEMON SQUEEZY

SOME OF US STRUGGLE, DAY TO DAY TO DO OUR BEST

MANY WILL FALTER AND INEVITABLY FAIL THE TEST

AS A CHILD WE DON’T ALWAYS SEE THE DIFFICULTIES FACED

THE KINDS OF PRESSURES UNDER WHICH FAMILIES ARE PLACED

SOME OF US ARE STRONG ENOUGH TO BE ABLE TO COPE

SADLY THOUGH SOME ARE LEFT FLOUNDERING WITHOUT HOPE

DO WE HAVE THE RIGHT TO JUDGE THOSE WE FEEL CAME UP SHORT?

DO WE EVEN TRY TO UNDERSTAND OR GIVE THEM A SECOND THOUGHT?

WHO ARE WE TO SAY THAT WE ARE ANY BETTER THAN THEY

FOR WE TOO MIGHT BE JUDGED ONE DAY IN THE SAME WAY

SOME ARE UNABLE TO MANAGE BECAUSE THEY ARE UNPREPARED OR ILL 

NEVER ABLE TO MANAGE EVEN WITH THE GREATEST WILL

LIFE IS SHORT & WE ALL HAVE REGRETS OR DREAMS UNFULLFILLED

IS IT WORTH THE STRESS OR BAYING FOR BLOOD TO BE SPILLED?

THE ANSWER IS NO!! WE ALL HAVE SKELETONS & FAULTS TO HIDE

LIFE IS NEVER EASY BUT MORE LIKE A ROLLERCOASTER RIDE

WE ALL HAVE THE CHANCE TO MAKE THE FUTURE BRIGHT

TO JUDGE OTHERS, FIRST WE MUST STEP INTO THE LIGHT

ONLY WHEN WE ARE PERFECT AND CARRY A HALO ABOVE OUR HEAD

CAN WE TRULY BE JUDGE AND JURY OVER THOSE WE WISH TO TRED

IT DOES NO GOOD TO HARBOR ANGER, HATE, OR DRAG UP THE PAST

INSTEAD WE SHOULD THINK AND LEARN BEFORE ASPERTIONS ARE CAST

JUST A FOOL TO BELIEVE

JUST A FOOL TO BELIEVE

LIKE THE FLIP OF A SWITCH, AS IF BY MAGIC

SUCH A FOOL HOW COMPLETELY TRAGIC

SUDDENLY CENTRE OF ATTENTION SPOTLIGHT ON ME

HOW COULD I BE SO BLIND AS NOT TO SEE

CAUGHT IN YOUR WEB LIKE A BLACK WIDOW SPIDER

AFTER SO MUCH HEARTACHE I SHOULD BE WISER

NO ENCOURAGEMENT NEEDED, YOU TOOK THE LEAD

MISSED WARNINGS AND SIGNS I DIDN’T READ

THE USUAL STUFF YOU KNOW HOW THE STORY GOES

FOLLOWED BY THE AWFUL SMELL THAT KILLS YOUR NOSE

BULLSHIT FLYING AROUND BUT LOVE IS AN AMAZING DISGUISE

BLINDING YOU TO WHAT IS RIGHT BEFORE YOUR EYES

LOSING FAITH IN FINDING SOMEONE HONEST AND TRUE

WHY DID I FALL HOOK LINE AND SINKER FOR YOU

EVEN AFTER ALL THOSE MESSAGES SENT & MESSAGES RECEIVED

HOW COULD I HAVE BEEN SO EASILY DECEIVED

SUDDENLY IT CLICKS AND THE LIGHT COMES ON

WHEN THEY REALISE YOU WANT MORE & THEN THEIR GONE

ONLY INTERESTED IN A ONE NIGHT STAND, CASUAL FLING

THEN IT’S OVER, RIGHT ON CUE THE FAT LADY STARTS TO SING

THEN YOU GET MAYBE, NOT SURE!! THEY CAN’T DECIDE

WHEN ALL THE TIME THEY ARE TAKING YOU FOR A RIDE

THEY JUST WANT TO HAVE THEIR CAKE AND EAT IT WHILE THE CAT’S AWAY

BUT IN THE END YOU KNOW THAT THEY WILL ALWAYS STAY

LIKE ACTING BLIND YOU NEVER SEE THE SCRIPT

ULTIMATELY ENDING UP WITH YOUR HEART FROM YOUR BODY BEING RIPPED

HARSH AS IT SEEMS THEY HAVE NO REMORSE WITH THEIR EVIL SCHEMES

HAPPY TO DANCE ON SOMEONE ELSES ROMANTIC DREAMS

HOW CAN I TELL

HOW CAN I TELL

IS THERE A SIGN IS THERE A SET OF RULES

DO I POSSES THE RIGHT SKILLS OR SET OF TOOLS

WHAT IS THE FORMULA FOR WORKING IT OUT

BEFORE I BECOME GREY AND BEGIN TO SHOUT

CAN YOU IMAGINE A MORE COMPLEX WAY OF THINKING

UNDERSTANDING WOMEN IS ENOUGH TO MAKE YOU START DRINKING

WITH SO MANY TYPES YOU’RE ALREADY LAGGING BEHIND

THEIR SHEAR COMPLEXITY IS ENOUGH TO BLOW YOUR MIND

NOW HAVING SEVEN SISTERS YOU THINK WOULD GIVE YOU A START

MORE OFTEN THAN NOT MORE LIKE THE HORSE BEFORE THE CART

TALKING AND UNDERSTANDING IS EASY WHEN HELPING OUT A MATE

THE CHAOS COMES WHEN HEADING TOWARDS FLIRTING OR A DATE

WHEN YOU’VE BEEN PLAYED SO MANY TIMES YOU FEEL IN NEED OF REPAIR

IN TODAYS WORLD IT SEEMS THE NORM TO BE ABUSE WITHOUT CARE

PUSH THE RIGHT BUTTONS AND YOU’RE HOOKED ON THE LINE

COMPLETELY SMITTEN THE WORLD IS WONDERFUL AND FINE

ALWAYS PICKING THE USERS OR THOSE WITH A SUITCASE OF CRAP

UNABLE TO SEE THE WARNING SIGNS INEVITABLY FALLING INTO THEIR TRAP

JUST AFTER FUN THOUGH THEY HIDE THEIR TRUE INTENT

SAYING SO MUCH THOUGH NONE OF IT IS EVER REALLY MEANT

MESSAGES SHARED THE FEELINGS START TO GROW

THEN THEY SAY HEY TOO FAST YOU HAVE TO TAKE IT SLOW

WELL FORGIVE MY AMAZEMENT I WAS ONLY TAKING YOUR LEAD

MAYBE IT SHOULD BE “SHOW ME THE RULES” BEFORE WE PROCEED

IS THE AGE OF ROMANCE AND CHIVALRY COMPLETELY DEAD

WHY DO WOMEN SEEM TO LIKE COMPLETE ASSHOLES INSTEAD

FORGIVE ME FOR BEING LOVING AND KIND AND HOPELESSLY BLIND

BUT THAT’S THE WAY I WAS CREATED AND THANKFULLY DESIGNED

SOON YOU HEAR LET’S TAKE A BREAK THIS IS TOO INTENSE

TO WHICH I REPLY PLEASE DON’T INSULT MY INTELLIGENCE

BE HONEST & SAY YOU ONLY WANTED A FLING & NOT THE WHOLE DEAL

BECAUSE BELIEVE ME ACTING LIKE THAT YOU LOSE YOUR APPEAL

THEN AS IF BY MAGIC, YOU KNOW IT’S COMING, NO LONGER REQUIRED

YOU’RE VISA FOR LOVE HAS APPARENTLY WITH IMMEDIATE EFFECT EXPIRED

TO KEEP ON TRYING IS IT WORTH THE HEARTACHE AND DESPAIR

THESE TYPE OF WOMEN SHOULD COME WITH A WARNING “BEWARE”

DO YOU KNOW WHAT YOU DO

DO YOU KNOW WHAT YOU DO

DO YOU KNOW WHAT YOU DO OR DO YOU EVEN CARE

ARE YOU ALWAYS IN CONTROL OR COMPLETELY UNAWARE

DO YO TAKE EACH DAY WITH COMPLETE DISREGARD

ARE YOU KIND AND CARING OR SIMPLY COLD AND HARD

WHEN YOU MEET FOR THE FIRST TIME ARE YOU GENUINE & TRUE

OR IS THERE ALWAYS AN ULTERIOR MOTIVE IN WHAT YOU DO

DO FEELINGS MATTER OR ARE THEY JUST FOR SHOW

IF REAL EMOTION HIT YOU ON THE NOSE WOULD YOU EVEN KNOW

WHEN YOU TALK, WHEN YOU SMILE, WHEN YOU LAUGH, WHEN YOU CRY

IS IT ALL FOR REAL OR JUST A SKILLFULLY CRAFTED LIE

CAN YOU EVEN BEGIN TO UNDERSTAND CONSEQUENCES OF YOUR ACTIONS

ARE YOU EVEN REMOTELY AFFECTED BY ANOTHERS PAIN OR PEOPLES REACTIONS

DO YOU HAVE ANY NIGHTMARES THAT HAUNT YOUR SLEEP

OR TIMES WHEN YOU FEEL ASHAMED AND UNCONTROLLABLY WEEP

IS THE DAY LIKE A KNIFE STABBING YOU IN THE BACK

REMINDING YOU THAT YOU’RE HEART IS COLD AND BLACK

IF SOMETHING WAS IMPORTANT WOULD YOU EVEN CARE

OR STAND WITH A BLANK EXPRESSION AND SIMPLY STARE

IS IT TOO LATE TO CHANGE WHAT YOU HAVE BECOME

OR ARE YOU SIMPLY BEYOND HELP HARDENED AND NUMB

TRYING TO UNDERSTAND THOUGH, THROUGH THE HAZE IT’S HARD TO SEE

WHAT IT WAS THAT MADE YOU REMOTELY INTERESTING TO ME

STRANGE HOW YOU CAN EASILY BE TAKEN IN BY KIND WORDS AND A SMILE

BELIEVEING EVERYTHING IS OK WHEN REALLY YOU ARE IN DENIAL

WITH AGE COMES WISDOM WITH LIFE COMES EXPERIENCE

MAYBE ONE DAY YOU WILL LEARN TO TRULY LOVE WITHOUT THE PRETENCE

ALWAYS YOU’RE WAY THE EXPRESSION “SELFISH” NEVER MORE APT OR TRUE

MAYBE ONE DAY YOU WILL UNDERSTAND WHEN SOMEONE SAYS “DO YOU KNOW WHAT YOU DO”

drama queen

Drama queen

You know the type, always looking to take centre stage

Heaven help you if you should fail to involve or engage

Driving you crazy, everything has to end up as a drama

Head in hands praying to find some peaceful karma

No matter what the subject or crisis is, you know what’s next

God forbid you might intervene & leave them seriously vexed

Thinking that they are better or more important than you  

No matter what the outcome, they will always believe this to be true

Even if there is nothing at all worth worrying about

They will turn it around without a shadow of a doubt

Always creating chaos and unnecessary tension

And woe betide you if you should even dare to mention

Looks on faces as you sense the growing frustration

Lost for words is it even worth trying to give an explanation

Whatever is said you might as well speak to yourself

As the alternative could seriously damage your health

No win situation whatever you do your bound to be wrong

Might as well just wait for the fat lady to start singing her song

The ironic thing is everyone else ends up getting stressed

How lucky they are to be so perfect and heavenly blessed

Everything their way or not at all, you can take your pick

I for one would like to be alone in a room with them & a very large stick

You just want to scream, but you know it will only get worse

Help I’m going insane can someone please get me to a nurse

Stopping now before I go crackers, completely insane

Accepting the fact that that all my stressing will be in vain

And please don’t for one minute believe that I enjoy being mean

But sometimes the last thing you need is a drama queen

the way it's meant to be

THE WAY IT’S MEANT TO BE

WILL IT CHANGE OR WILL IT STILL REMAIN?

THE EMPTINESS INSIDE, FILLED WITH PAIN

CAN MY BROKEN HEART EVER TRULY MEND?

WILL I FIND SOMEONE ON WHOM I CAN DEPEND?

CAN TOMORROW BE ANY BETTER THAN IT IS TODAY?

OR WILL IT JUST CARRY ON THE SAME IN ITS USUAL WAY

IS FAITH WORTH BELEIVING IN, IS IT WORTH HAVING HOPE?

SHOULD I STAY AND FIGHT OR IS IT EASIER TO ELOPE?

LEARNING TO TRUST AND FIND HAPPINESS AGAIN

SOMETIMES FEELING LIKE YOUR EFFORTS ARE IN VAIN

CAN YOU EVER REALLY FEEL THAT WAY AGAIN, HAPPY CAREFREE?

OR IS IT SIMPLY THAT THIS IS THE WAY IT’S MEANT TO BE

ALL AROUND YOU THE SPECTRUM OF A COMPLICATED LIFE

THE DAILY TRAUMA COMBINED WITH ALL THE TROUBLE AND STRIFE

PEOPLE TAKING FOR GRANTED THE BLESSINGS THEY HAVE BEEN GIVEN

SOME RELAXED THOUGH MOST ARE HARDENED AND DRIVEN

THOUGH NOT DESPERATE THE OLDER WE GET THE HARDER WE TRY

FOR TIME IS SHORT & WE ARE ALL TOO AWARE HOW QUICKLY IT PASSES US BY

IF NOT CAREFUL WE CAN END UP IN A RUT AND GRIND TO A HALT

OR SIMPLY MAKE EXCUSES & ALWAYS MAKE IT SOMEONE ELSES FAULT

ON OUR SOAP BOX OF SORROW BEMOANING OUR TERRIBLE FATE

IF WE ARE NOT CAREFUL WE WILL FIND THAT IT’S ALREADY TOO LATE

LIFE IS FOR LIVING AND EACH MOMENT IS TO BE TREASURED

FOR THE PRICE OF TRUE HAPPINESS CAN NEVER BE MEASURED

LIFE IS A GAMBLE AND EACH DAY IS LIKE A SPIN ON THE WHEEL OF ROULETTE

THE OUTCOME OF WHICH IS THE RESULT OF OUR CAREFULLY PLACED BET

IN LIFE WE MAKE OUR OWN LUCK WHETHER RESTRICTED OR FREE

SO LIVE LIFE TO THE FULL AND NOT SIMPLY THE WAY IT’S MEANT TO BE

to see or not to see

TO SEE OR NOT TO SEE

Sight is what lies in front of us

Vision is what lies ahead of us

To what extent are we truly aware?

& if the truth be told would we even care?

The present is the here and now

The future is out there to achieve somehow

Some driven by ambitions and hopeless schemes

Whatever it takes! Whatever the cost! to achieve their dreams

Are we blinded to the problems that we face?

Or merely blinkered sinking without a trace

With so much at our disposal we have what it takes

More haste less speed if we are to avoid mistakes

The more we push the limits the higher the stakes

The chain only as strong as the weakest link before it breaks

Our past excesses and greed coming back to haunt

The proverbial “I told you so” a constant taunt

Making changes as we count the growing cost

Reality hits home, acutely aware that all was nearly lost

How did we fall so quickly and crumble so fast?

Is anything in today’s world ever truly meant to last?

Excuses and lies to hide our shameful disregard

No easy retreat, recovery will be long and hard

Beyond our control our pitiful defense

Masquerading as something other than false pretense

Lessons must be learned if we are to ever fully recover

There is still so much to achieve and for us to discover

With limited choices decisions will be hard to make

How well we will do depends upon the action we take