lost

lost

Lonely and broken nothing to give

I have no desires or wishes to live

All that keeps me going is my boys

Everything else is a mishmash of noise

Happiness evades me whenever I call

Every single time upon the sword I fall

Rejection greats me like an old school friend

Sick of being alone, when will it end

Why does it always feel so good at the Start?

Then it slowly rips to shreds your beating heart

Am I crazy, mad, or evil is that the reason

Should I be beaten and whipped then tried for treason

Working helps but it cannot hide the pain I feel

Life is like a runaway car with me at the wheel

On a collision course to crash and burn

Life is one long lesson but will I ever learn

Like watching a movie you never quite understand

However hard I try nothing ever goes as planned

Even if I had the answers I’m sure I’d still be wrong

Endless turmoil inside my head wondering where I belong

Like a chameleon changing to suit the situation

Front page story, headline news without the information

Will I ever truly understand what it means to be happy and free?

Or will I forever languish in the fires of hell for all eternity