far from perfect

FAR FROM PERFECT

WE ALL HAVE FAULTS NO MATTER WHO WE ARE

& MEMORIES SOME OF WHICH WILL HAVE LEFT A SCAR

NONE OF US ARE PERFECT AND WE HAVE TO ACCEPT

ONLY PAIN WILL COME FROM THINGS BETTER, IN THE PAST KEPT

THE FEELING THAT WE WERE WRONGED & HARD DONE BY

LIVING A LIFE WHEN WE WOULD LAUGH LESS THAN WE WOULD CRY

THOUGHTS OF OTHERS FAVOURED MORE THAN OURSELVES

FEELING LIKE WE WERE REDUNDANT LEFT ON THE SHELVES

REALITY IS THAT NO ONE IS PERFECT AND LIFE IS NEVER EASY

IT’S NOT A CASE OF MILLS & BOON, EASY PEASY LEMON SQUEEZY

SOME OF US STRUGGLE, DAY TO DAY TO DO OUR BEST

MANY WILL FALTER AND INEVITABLY FAIL THE TEST

AS A CHILD WE DON’T ALWAYS SEE THE DIFFICULTIES FACED

THE KINDS OF PRESSURES UNDER WHICH FAMILIES ARE PLACED

SOME OF US ARE STRONG ENOUGH TO BE ABLE TO COPE

SADLY THOUGH SOME ARE LEFT FLOUNDERING WITHOUT HOPE

DO WE HAVE THE RIGHT TO JUDGE THOSE WE FEEL CAME UP SHORT?

DO WE EVEN TRY TO UNDERSTAND OR GIVE THEM A SECOND THOUGHT?

WHO ARE WE TO SAY THAT WE ARE ANY BETTER THAN THEY

FOR WE TOO MIGHT BE JUDGED ONE DAY IN THE SAME WAY

SOME ARE UNABLE TO MANAGE BECAUSE THEY ARE UNPREPARED OR ILL 

NEVER ABLE TO MANAGE EVEN WITH THE GREATEST WILL

LIFE IS SHORT & WE ALL HAVE REGRETS OR DREAMS UNFULLFILLED

IS IT WORTH THE STRESS OR BAYING FOR BLOOD TO BE SPILLED?

THE ANSWER IS NO!! WE ALL HAVE SKELETONS & FAULTS TO HIDE

LIFE IS NEVER EASY BUT MORE LIKE A ROLLERCOASTER RIDE

WE ALL HAVE THE CHANCE TO MAKE THE FUTURE BRIGHT

TO JUDGE OTHERS, FIRST WE MUST STEP INTO THE LIGHT

ONLY WHEN WE ARE PERFECT AND CARRY A HALO ABOVE OUR HEAD

CAN WE TRULY BE JUDGE AND JURY OVER THOSE WE WISH TO TRED

IT DOES NO GOOD TO HARBOR ANGER, HATE, OR DRAG UP THE PAST

INSTEAD WE SHOULD THINK AND LEARN BEFORE ASPERTIONS ARE CAST

JUST A FOOL TO BELIEVE

JUST A FOOL TO BELIEVE

LIKE THE FLIP OF A SWITCH, AS IF BY MAGIC

SUCH A FOOL HOW COMPLETELY TRAGIC

SUDDENLY CENTRE OF ATTENTION SPOTLIGHT ON ME

HOW COULD I BE SO BLIND AS NOT TO SEE

CAUGHT IN YOUR WEB LIKE A BLACK WIDOW SPIDER

AFTER SO MUCH HEARTACHE I SHOULD BE WISER

NO ENCOURAGEMENT NEEDED, YOU TOOK THE LEAD

MISSED WARNINGS AND SIGNS I DIDN’T READ

THE USUAL STUFF YOU KNOW HOW THE STORY GOES

FOLLOWED BY THE AWFUL SMELL THAT KILLS YOUR NOSE

BULLSHIT FLYING AROUND BUT LOVE IS AN AMAZING DISGUISE

BLINDING YOU TO WHAT IS RIGHT BEFORE YOUR EYES

LOSING FAITH IN FINDING SOMEONE HONEST AND TRUE

WHY DID I FALL HOOK LINE AND SINKER FOR YOU

EVEN AFTER ALL THOSE MESSAGES SENT & MESSAGES RECEIVED

HOW COULD I HAVE BEEN SO EASILY DECEIVED

SUDDENLY IT CLICKS AND THE LIGHT COMES ON

WHEN THEY REALISE YOU WANT MORE & THEN THEIR GONE

ONLY INTERESTED IN A ONE NIGHT STAND, CASUAL FLING

THEN IT’S OVER, RIGHT ON CUE THE FAT LADY STARTS TO SING

THEN YOU GET MAYBE, NOT SURE!! THEY CAN’T DECIDE

WHEN ALL THE TIME THEY ARE TAKING YOU FOR A RIDE

THEY JUST WANT TO HAVE THEIR CAKE AND EAT IT WHILE THE CAT’S AWAY

BUT IN THE END YOU KNOW THAT THEY WILL ALWAYS STAY

LIKE ACTING BLIND YOU NEVER SEE THE SCRIPT

ULTIMATELY ENDING UP WITH YOUR HEART FROM YOUR BODY BEING RIPPED

HARSH AS IT SEEMS THEY HAVE NO REMORSE WITH THEIR EVIL SCHEMES

HAPPY TO DANCE ON SOMEONE ELSES ROMANTIC DREAMS

HOW CAN I TELL

HOW CAN I TELL

IS THERE A SIGN IS THERE A SET OF RULES

DO I POSSES THE RIGHT SKILLS OR SET OF TOOLS

WHAT IS THE FORMULA FOR WORKING IT OUT

BEFORE I BECOME GREY AND BEGIN TO SHOUT

CAN YOU IMAGINE A MORE COMPLEX WAY OF THINKING

UNDERSTANDING WOMEN IS ENOUGH TO MAKE YOU START DRINKING

WITH SO MANY TYPES YOU’RE ALREADY LAGGING BEHIND

THEIR SHEAR COMPLEXITY IS ENOUGH TO BLOW YOUR MIND

NOW HAVING SEVEN SISTERS YOU THINK WOULD GIVE YOU A START

MORE OFTEN THAN NOT MORE LIKE THE HORSE BEFORE THE CART

TALKING AND UNDERSTANDING IS EASY WHEN HELPING OUT A MATE

THE CHAOS COMES WHEN HEADING TOWARDS FLIRTING OR A DATE

WHEN YOU’VE BEEN PLAYED SO MANY TIMES YOU FEEL IN NEED OF REPAIR

IN TODAYS WORLD IT SEEMS THE NORM TO BE ABUSE WITHOUT CARE

PUSH THE RIGHT BUTTONS AND YOU’RE HOOKED ON THE LINE

COMPLETELY SMITTEN THE WORLD IS WONDERFUL AND FINE

ALWAYS PICKING THE USERS OR THOSE WITH A SUITCASE OF CRAP

UNABLE TO SEE THE WARNING SIGNS INEVITABLY FALLING INTO THEIR TRAP

JUST AFTER FUN THOUGH THEY HIDE THEIR TRUE INTENT

SAYING SO MUCH THOUGH NONE OF IT IS EVER REALLY MEANT

MESSAGES SHARED THE FEELINGS START TO GROW

THEN THEY SAY HEY TOO FAST YOU HAVE TO TAKE IT SLOW

WELL FORGIVE MY AMAZEMENT I WAS ONLY TAKING YOUR LEAD

MAYBE IT SHOULD BE “SHOW ME THE RULES” BEFORE WE PROCEED

IS THE AGE OF ROMANCE AND CHIVALRY COMPLETELY DEAD

WHY DO WOMEN SEEM TO LIKE COMPLETE ASSHOLES INSTEAD

FORGIVE ME FOR BEING LOVING AND KIND AND HOPELESSLY BLIND

BUT THAT’S THE WAY I WAS CREATED AND THANKFULLY DESIGNED

SOON YOU HEAR LET’S TAKE A BREAK THIS IS TOO INTENSE

TO WHICH I REPLY PLEASE DON’T INSULT MY INTELLIGENCE

BE HONEST & SAY YOU ONLY WANTED A FLING & NOT THE WHOLE DEAL

BECAUSE BELIEVE ME ACTING LIKE THAT YOU LOSE YOUR APPEAL

THEN AS IF BY MAGIC, YOU KNOW IT’S COMING, NO LONGER REQUIRED

YOU’RE VISA FOR LOVE HAS APPARENTLY WITH IMMEDIATE EFFECT EXPIRED

TO KEEP ON TRYING IS IT WORTH THE HEARTACHE AND DESPAIR

THESE TYPE OF WOMEN SHOULD COME WITH A WARNING “BEWARE”

DO YOU KNOW WHAT YOU DO

DO YOU KNOW WHAT YOU DO

DO YOU KNOW WHAT YOU DO OR DO YOU EVEN CARE

ARE YOU ALWAYS IN CONTROL OR COMPLETELY UNAWARE

DO YO TAKE EACH DAY WITH COMPLETE DISREGARD

ARE YOU KIND AND CARING OR SIMPLY COLD AND HARD

WHEN YOU MEET FOR THE FIRST TIME ARE YOU GENUINE & TRUE

OR IS THERE ALWAYS AN ULTERIOR MOTIVE IN WHAT YOU DO

DO FEELINGS MATTER OR ARE THEY JUST FOR SHOW

IF REAL EMOTION HIT YOU ON THE NOSE WOULD YOU EVEN KNOW

WHEN YOU TALK, WHEN YOU SMILE, WHEN YOU LAUGH, WHEN YOU CRY

IS IT ALL FOR REAL OR JUST A SKILLFULLY CRAFTED LIE

CAN YOU EVEN BEGIN TO UNDERSTAND CONSEQUENCES OF YOUR ACTIONS

ARE YOU EVEN REMOTELY AFFECTED BY ANOTHERS PAIN OR PEOPLES REACTIONS

DO YOU HAVE ANY NIGHTMARES THAT HAUNT YOUR SLEEP

OR TIMES WHEN YOU FEEL ASHAMED AND UNCONTROLLABLY WEEP

IS THE DAY LIKE A KNIFE STABBING YOU IN THE BACK

REMINDING YOU THAT YOU’RE HEART IS COLD AND BLACK

IF SOMETHING WAS IMPORTANT WOULD YOU EVEN CARE

OR STAND WITH A BLANK EXPRESSION AND SIMPLY STARE

IS IT TOO LATE TO CHANGE WHAT YOU HAVE BECOME

OR ARE YOU SIMPLY BEYOND HELP HARDENED AND NUMB

TRYING TO UNDERSTAND THOUGH, THROUGH THE HAZE IT’S HARD TO SEE

WHAT IT WAS THAT MADE YOU REMOTELY INTERESTING TO ME

STRANGE HOW YOU CAN EASILY BE TAKEN IN BY KIND WORDS AND A SMILE

BELIEVEING EVERYTHING IS OK WHEN REALLY YOU ARE IN DENIAL

WITH AGE COMES WISDOM WITH LIFE COMES EXPERIENCE

MAYBE ONE DAY YOU WILL LEARN TO TRULY LOVE WITHOUT THE PRETENCE

ALWAYS YOU’RE WAY THE EXPRESSION “SELFISH” NEVER MORE APT OR TRUE

MAYBE ONE DAY YOU WILL UNDERSTAND WHEN SOMEONE SAYS “DO YOU KNOW WHAT YOU DO”

drama queen

Drama queen

You know the type, always looking to take centre stage

Heaven help you if you should fail to involve or engage

Driving you crazy, everything has to end up as a drama

Head in hands praying to find some peaceful karma

No matter what the subject or crisis is, you know what’s next

God forbid you might intervene & leave them seriously vexed

Thinking that they are better or more important than you  

No matter what the outcome, they will always believe this to be true

Even if there is nothing at all worth worrying about

They will turn it around without a shadow of a doubt

Always creating chaos and unnecessary tension

And woe betide you if you should even dare to mention

Looks on faces as you sense the growing frustration

Lost for words is it even worth trying to give an explanation

Whatever is said you might as well speak to yourself

As the alternative could seriously damage your health

No win situation whatever you do your bound to be wrong

Might as well just wait for the fat lady to start singing her song

The ironic thing is everyone else ends up getting stressed

How lucky they are to be so perfect and heavenly blessed

Everything their way or not at all, you can take your pick

I for one would like to be alone in a room with them & a very large stick

You just want to scream, but you know it will only get worse

Help I’m going insane can someone please get me to a nurse

Stopping now before I go crackers, completely insane

Accepting the fact that that all my stressing will be in vain

And please don’t for one minute believe that I enjoy being mean

But sometimes the last thing you need is a drama queen

the way it's meant to be

THE WAY IT’S MEANT TO BE

WILL IT CHANGE OR WILL IT STILL REMAIN?

THE EMPTINESS INSIDE, FILLED WITH PAIN

CAN MY BROKEN HEART EVER TRULY MEND?

WILL I FIND SOMEONE ON WHOM I CAN DEPEND?

CAN TOMORROW BE ANY BETTER THAN IT IS TODAY?

OR WILL IT JUST CARRY ON THE SAME IN ITS USUAL WAY

IS FAITH WORTH BELEIVING IN, IS IT WORTH HAVING HOPE?

SHOULD I STAY AND FIGHT OR IS IT EASIER TO ELOPE?

LEARNING TO TRUST AND FIND HAPPINESS AGAIN

SOMETIMES FEELING LIKE YOUR EFFORTS ARE IN VAIN

CAN YOU EVER REALLY FEEL THAT WAY AGAIN, HAPPY CAREFREE?

OR IS IT SIMPLY THAT THIS IS THE WAY IT’S MEANT TO BE

ALL AROUND YOU THE SPECTRUM OF A COMPLICATED LIFE

THE DAILY TRAUMA COMBINED WITH ALL THE TROUBLE AND STRIFE

PEOPLE TAKING FOR GRANTED THE BLESSINGS THEY HAVE BEEN GIVEN

SOME RELAXED THOUGH MOST ARE HARDENED AND DRIVEN

THOUGH NOT DESPERATE THE OLDER WE GET THE HARDER WE TRY

FOR TIME IS SHORT & WE ARE ALL TOO AWARE HOW QUICKLY IT PASSES US BY

IF NOT CAREFUL WE CAN END UP IN A RUT AND GRIND TO A HALT

OR SIMPLY MAKE EXCUSES & ALWAYS MAKE IT SOMEONE ELSES FAULT

ON OUR SOAP BOX OF SORROW BEMOANING OUR TERRIBLE FATE

IF WE ARE NOT CAREFUL WE WILL FIND THAT IT’S ALREADY TOO LATE

LIFE IS FOR LIVING AND EACH MOMENT IS TO BE TREASURED

FOR THE PRICE OF TRUE HAPPINESS CAN NEVER BE MEASURED

LIFE IS A GAMBLE AND EACH DAY IS LIKE A SPIN ON THE WHEEL OF ROULETTE

THE OUTCOME OF WHICH IS THE RESULT OF OUR CAREFULLY PLACED BET

IN LIFE WE MAKE OUR OWN LUCK WHETHER RESTRICTED OR FREE

SO LIVE LIFE TO THE FULL AND NOT SIMPLY THE WAY IT’S MEANT TO BE

to see or not to see

TO SEE OR NOT TO SEE

Sight is what lies in front of us

Vision is what lies ahead of us

To what extent are we truly aware?

& if the truth be told would we even care?

The present is the here and now

The future is out there to achieve somehow

Some driven by ambitions and hopeless schemes

Whatever it takes! Whatever the cost! to achieve their dreams

Are we blinded to the problems that we face?

Or merely blinkered sinking without a trace

With so much at our disposal we have what it takes

More haste less speed if we are to avoid mistakes

The more we push the limits the higher the stakes

The chain only as strong as the weakest link before it breaks

Our past excesses and greed coming back to haunt

The proverbial “I told you so” a constant taunt

Making changes as we count the growing cost

Reality hits home, acutely aware that all was nearly lost

How did we fall so quickly and crumble so fast?

Is anything in today’s world ever truly meant to last?

Excuses and lies to hide our shameful disregard

No easy retreat, recovery will be long and hard

Beyond our control our pitiful defense

Masquerading as something other than false pretense

Lessons must be learned if we are to ever fully recover

There is still so much to achieve and for us to discover

With limited choices decisions will be hard to make

How well we will do depends upon the action we take

my poem for you

MY POEM FOR YOU

MY POEM FOR YOU WRITTEN FROM THE HEART

A JOURNEY OF LOVE THAT HAS JUST BEGUN

FILLED WITH HAPPINESS THOUGH SAD WHEN APART

A MEETING OF HEARTS, WHEN TWO BECOME ONE

INSTANT ATTRACTION WHEN TWO SOULS CONNECT

WHEN PULSES RACE AND HEARTS BEAT FASTER

AS EMOTIONS TAKE OVER QUICKER THAN YOU EXPECT

WHISKED AWAY AMIDST THE FAIRYTALE FOREVER AFTER

UNSPOKEN WORDS AN ORCHESTRA OF SILENT SOUNDS

THE MOST EXQUISITE EYES AND SOFT SWEET LIPS

THE VELVET CASE WITHIN WHICH MY HEART POUNDS

BUTTERFLIES AND WEAKNESS WITH EACH BEAT MY HEART SKIPS

THE SOFTEST SKIN SMOOTH LIKE SILK THE SWEETEST CARESS

COUNTING THE TIME UNTIL WE CAN BE TOGETHER AGAIN

WITH ELEGANCE, GRACE, AND AMAZING BEAUTY YOU ARE BLESSED

LONGING TO HOLD YOU AND FEEL YOU BEFORE I GO INSANE

CAPTIVATING SMILE, HEADS TURN AS YOU ENTER THE ROOM

SO FEW WORDS COULD EVER DO JUSTICE TO THE WONDER OF YOU

ANGELS SING IN HARMONY THE MOST ENCHANTING TUNE

A TRULY WONDERFUL LADY WITH A HEART SO WARM AND TRUE

THE FRAGRANCE & COLOUR OF A SUMMERS DAY WITH FLOWERS IN BLOOM

STARRY SKY NO CLOUDS IN SIGHT, UPON THE WATERS EDGE MOONS REFLECTION

WHEN SADNESS SURROUNDS WITH YOUR SPIRIT YOU LIFT THE GLOOM

NEVER BEFORE HAVE I FELT, OR COULD I EVER IMAGINE SUCH A CONNECTION

NO WRITTEN RULE OR DEFINED CODE CAN EVER SHACKLE THIS RAW EMOTION

SIMPLE WORDS, WHY COMPLICATE WHEN YOU ARE TRYING TO EXPRESS A LOVE SO TRUE

THE MOMENT YOU KNOW, WHEN YOU FEEL SUCH OVERWHELMING DEVOTION

FROM THE HEART THESE WORDS ARE WRITTEN WITH LOVE IN MY POEM FOR YOU

lost

lost

Lonely and broken nothing to give

I have no desires or wishes to live

All that keeps me going is my boys

Everything else is a mishmash of noise

Happiness evades me whenever I call

Every single time upon the sword I fall

Rejection greats me like an old school friend

Sick of being alone, when will it end

Why does it always feel so good at the Start?

Then it slowly rips to shreds your beating heart

Am I crazy, mad, or evil is that the reason

Should I be beaten and whipped then tried for treason

Working helps but it cannot hide the pain I feel

Life is like a runaway car with me at the wheel

On a collision course to crash and burn

Life is one long lesson but will I ever learn

Like watching a movie you never quite understand

However hard I try nothing ever goes as planned

Even if I had the answers I’m sure I’d still be wrong

Endless turmoil inside my head wondering where I belong

Like a chameleon changing to suit the situation

Front page story, headline news without the information

Will I ever truly understand what it means to be happy and free?

Or will I forever languish in the fires of hell for all eternity

just another day

JUST ANOTHER DAY

INCREDIBLY HAPPY, SAD, EXCITING OR DULL

SO MUCH TO DO OR SIMPLY NOTHING AT ALL

BORING AS HELL OR THE BEST DAY YOU CAN EVER RECALL

THE MOST AMAZING HIGH OR THE HARDEST FALL

FULL OF ENTERTAINMENT OR OUT OF CONTROL

CLIMBING A MOUNTAIN OR FALLING DOWN A HOLE

BIZARRE RIDICULOUS, NOT WHAT YOU WOULD EXPECT

TRYING YOUR HARDEST TO IMPRESS, BUT WITH LITTLE EFFECT

DO YOU GIVE UP OR DO YOU TRY TO MAKE THE BEST?

SALVAGING SOMETHING FROM THE MESS WITH RENEWED ZEST

DO YOU STOP AND THINK THERE MUST BE ANOTHER WAY?

OR RESIGN YOURSELF TO THE FACT THAT IT’S JUST ANOTHER DAY

ANOTHER SLEEPLESS NIGHT UNABLE TO RELAX OR UNWIND

ENDLESS FEELINGS EMOTIONS RUNNING THROUGH YOUR MIND

SEARCHING FOR STABILITY AND STRESSLESS CAREFREE DAYS

STILL AFFECTED BY WHATS GONE BEFORE, SO HARD TO ERASE

STUCK IN A RUT OR EVEN WHEN YOU FEEL DOWN IN THE DUMPS

ALWAYS REMEMBER LIFE CAN BE SMOOTH WITHOUT THE LUMPS

IT’S NOT ALWAYS ABOUT HERE TODAY AND GONE TOMORROW

OR THE BATTLE BETWEEN HAPPINESS, PAIN, JOY OR SORROW

IT’S ABOUT LOOKING FORWARD AND MAKING THE MOST OF OUR TIME

ALWAYS POSITIVE, NOT LOOKING AT IT LIKE A MOUNTAIN TO CLIMB

OTHERWISE WHY DO WE BOTHER WHY DO WE CARRY ON?

SHOULD WE JUST GIVE UP AND DESTROY, UNTILL ALL IS GONE?

THE MORAL OF THE STORY IS NO MATTER WHAT, COME WHAT MAY

THROUGH ALL THE EXCITEMENT MADNESS AND EVERYTHING YOU DO AND SAY

ENJOY LIFE AND EVERYTHING IT HAS TO OFFER AND BRING YOUR WAY

THEN MAYBE JUST MAYBE LIFE WON’T BE JUST ANOTHER DAY

a lonely star

A LONELY STAR

I WANDER THIS LAND A LONELY STAR

TIRED AND WEARY, HAVE TRAVELED FAR

WHERE I AM AT OR WHERE I SHOULD BE

PERHAPS IN TIME ALL WILL BECOME CLEARER TO ME

SHINING BRIGHT THOUGH EMPTY INSIDE

MANY RIVERS CREATED WITH THE TEARS IVE CRIED

MANY HOPES SHATTERED UNDER THE WEIGHT OF EXPECTATION

MY FRAILTY AND FALLIBILITY, APPARENT UNDER EXAMINATION

I GAZED UPON YOU, HOPING YOU WOULD SMILE

OVERWHELMED BY YOUR BEAUTY AND ELEGANT STYLE

SO MANY NIGHTS SPENT ENDLESSLY DREAMING OF YOU

HOPING THAT ONE DAY MY DREAMS WOULD COME TRUE

FEELING TRAPPED IMPRISIONED BY THE NIGHT

MY ONLY REPRIEVE DAY BREAK, AND DAWNS FIRST LIGHT

UPON THE PATHS CREATED WITH THOUGHTS OF YOU

A JOURNEY OF DISCOVERY TO FIND A HEART SO TRUE

DOUBTS! MY LOCK & CHAIN!! HOPE! MY KEY TO RELEASE THE PAIN!

IF MY PRAYERS ARE ANSWERED WILL MY FEAR STILL REMAIN

CAN I JUMP THE HURDLES OF UNCERTAINTY & REACH THE WIRE

OR FOREVER SHALL I BE DESTINED TO LANGUISH IN HELLS FIRE

MY PAGE STILL UNWRITTEN MY FUTURE UNDISCOVERED

SHIPWRECKED ON THE ROCKS OF LIFE WAITING TO BE RECOVERED

A RETURNING SOUL ANOTHER CHAPTER TO BE WRITTEN

RENEWED WITH ENERGY AND DESIRE TOTALLY SMITTEN

WILL OUR HEARTS FOREVER REMAIN ENTWINED?

WILL OUR LOVE BE COMPLETE BODY SOUL AND MIND?

WILL HAPPINESS BE ENSURED AND ENRICH OUR LOVE

OR FOREVER SHALL I REMAIN THE LONELY STAR ABOVE

don't stop beleiving

DON’T STOP BELIEVING

BEYOND THE STARS WHERE THE ANGELS GAZE

WITHIN MY MINDS DREAM FILLED INTRICATE MAZE

AN ACHING HEART LONGS TO FEEL LOVE AGAIN

AND BANISH FOREVER THE HURT ANGER AND PAIN 

SO LONG IN THE WILDERNESS HIDDEN AWAY

UNABLE TO TRUST OR BELIEVE IT WILL BE OK

SEARCHING FOR THAT SOMEONE WHO SETS YOU ALIGHT

BEING ABLE TO KNOW THAT IT WILL ALL BE ALRIGHT

STARTING EACH DAY RENEWED WITH BELIEF AND HOPE

POSITIVE ATTITUDE DEFINITELY IF YOU’RE EXPECTING TO COPE

NO MATTER WHAT YOU HAVE OR WHATEVER YOU DO

IT’S IMPORTANT THAT YOU HAVE SOMETHING JUST FOR YOU

HELPING OTHERS BRINGS ITS OWN PRICELESS REWARDS

LIKE PLAYING A GUITAR ALWAYS HITTING THE RIGHT CHORDS

SOMETIMES THOUGH IT’S NOT ALL HAPPINESS AND BLISS

ESPECIALLY WHEN PEOPLE START TAKING THE P—S

BEING KIND AND CARING IS OFTEN SEEN AS BEING WEAK

NOT SO MUCH THE ROARING LION BUT MILD AND MEEK

YOU ARE WHO YOU ARE AND THAT WILL ALWAYS REMAIN

SO NEVER GIVE UP OR BELIEVE YOUR EFFORTS ARE IN VAIN

AROUND THE CORNER OR OVER THE VERY NEXT HILL

THERE IS ALWAYS SOMETHING TO STRENGTHEN YOUR WILL

THE BELIEF TO KEEP GOING WHEN ALL COMES CRASHING DOWN

AND AS OFTEN AS POSSIBLE WEARING A SMILE HIDING THE FROWN

DUST YOURSELF DOWN AND PICK UP THE REINS

REGAIN THE STRENGTH AND FORGET THE ACHES AND PAINS

THROUGH ALL THE CRAP SEE THE TRUTH WITHIN THE DECEIVING

AND ABOVE ALL ELSE DON’T STOP BELEIVING

across a crowded room

ACROSS A CROWDED ROOM

ACROSS A CROWDED ROOM TIME STOOD STILL

UNABLE TO MOVE, EYES FIXED FOCUSED ON YOU

A MOMENT CAPTURED FRAMED IN TIME

TRULY MAJESTIC SIMPLY BEAUTIFUL, SUBLIME

THROUGH A SEA OF PEOPLE AND WALL OF SOUND

MOVING SWIFTLY FEET DON’T TOUCH THE GROUND

APPROACHING YOUR SIDE, NERVOUS TONGUE TIED

ACHING SO MUCH TO SHARE THESE FEELINGS INSIDE

STUTTER AND STUMBLE FEELING LIKE SUCH A FOOL

PLANNED IN MY HEAD HOW I WOULD BE SWARTH AND COOL

BEST LAID PLANS FIRMLY KICKED OUT THE DOOR

DIGNITY AND PRIDE LYING IN SHAME UPON THE FLOOR

IN DREAMS THIS IS THE MOMENT SHE LAUGHS & YOU’RE IN WITH A CHANCE

BUT IN REALITY YOU KNOW THERE WILL BE NO ROMANCE

WALKING AWAY WITH TAIL BETWEEN LEGS CURSING YOUR LUCK

BLAMING YOURSELF AND REPEATING THE WORD THAT RHYMES WITH TRUCK

LIKE A BIKE AFTER YOU FALL GET STRAIGHT BACK ON

AND LICK YOUR WOUNDS UNTIL HEALED AND GONE

HAVE FAITH AND BELIEF THAT YOUR LUCK WILL CHANGE

MIRACLES CAN HAPPEN NO MATTER HOW UNBELEIVABLE OR STRANGE

GETTING IT RIGHT TAKES TIME AND PLENTY OF EFFORT AND WORK

LADIES WANT TO BE ROMANCED BY A GENTLEMAN AND NOT A JERK

SOMETIMES WHEN YOU LOOK YOU CAN’T SEE THE WOOD FOR THE TREES

THOUGH EVEN TAKING IT SLOWLY WON’T ALWAYS MAKE IT A BREEZE

WHEN THE MOMENT ARRIVES IT’S HARD TO HOLD BACK OR EVEN DISGUISE

THE EMOTIONS YOUR FEELING REFLECTED IN YOUR GAZING EYES

BUT LOVE IS MUCH MORE THAN PASSION, COMMITTNENT LOWS AND HIGHS

IT’S ABOUT TRUTH, FAITHFULLNESS, PATIENCE & HONESTY WITHOUT THE LIES

 

a life bereft of love

A LIFE BEREFT OF LOVE

Incomplete, unfulfilled locked in a box trapped concealed

A life without love is to be hidden away never revealed

How it feels to be with that special someone, never knowing

How could you ever be with a partner without ever showing?

Where would we be, how would we act if we felt emotion and failed to react

Always in the back of our minds knowing there was something we had lacked

Cutting off your nose to spite your face bereft of love in an empty space

Akin to drifting in an ocean of unhappiness & despair sinking without trace

Love is not just in the feelings we show to one another but in the things we do

Helping with disasters, causes, those in need and loved one’s closest to you

It enriches our lives and helps us to grow and to look forward to tomorrow

Without it we are only certain of a lifeless world filled with pain and sorrow

We can embrace or choose to disregard but life without love will hit us hard

Forget color creed or race we live in a world in which discrimination should have no place

We can talk & fight, argue who is wrong or right or against others show hate and spite

But we must always remember that not everything in life is black and white

Love can break barriers and tear down walls, building bridges where conflict exists

Nothing is ever straight forward or easy though and there will be turns and twists

Beware of our failings, like an artist in control of the picture he paints

If we act in the right way when held to account we should have no complaints

Why worry

Why worry

Forget the stress forget the worry

Take it easy! Why always be in such a hurry?

Even if into anarchy, you ultimately descend

Always remember it will all work out in the end

Take each day and live life to the max

No need to run yourself ragged, chill out relax

Patience is a virtue or so I have been told

To see it in action is truly a wonder to behold

Sometimes we are tested! More than we would like!

But remember if you fall off, it’s like riding a bike

 We are only human at times we flatter to deceive

But whatever our troubles we must always believe

Whatever the tunnel there will always be light

Always the stars to guide through the darkest night

Nothing is impossible if you have faith and believe

Put your heart and soul into all you do and you will achieve

Taking a chance out on a limb, staking a bet

It’s the opportunities missed that we live to regret

Out of the starting blocks the race has already begun

Only at the end will we know how well we have done

When finally we can sit back and with fondness recall

What we have learned and achieved if anything at all

But whatever we end up with when our time is done

I hope that I can say! At the very least, it was fun.

Facade

THE FACADE

What you see isn’t always exactly, what you get

And sometimes what you get you sometimes regret

That’s not to say don’t wish, or don’t be excited by what you see

It is just that things are not always, what they seem to be

Now family they say is the strongest of bonds you can ever find

I have been quite lucky, mine is an exception so bare that in mind

However, some are at war on a daily basis and always falling apart

Remember it is not always, what we do but whether it comes from the heart

Take friends well where do you start? Do they exist?

More fair-weather than not, there when it suits, if you get the jist

Rarely will you find someone who will be there through thick & thin

Ok on the outside, everything seems fine until you look within

Then there’s work well talk about two faced watch your back

Colleagues smiling to your face behind you’re back waiting to attack

Always looking for the chance to make you feel small & gain the upper hand

One-upmanship their chosen sport their goal to have you jump to their command

Girlfriend, boyfriend a match for life maybe one day even as husband & wife

Sharing those special moments and experiences that you go through in life

2 point 4 children a house with a pool, and don’t forget the private school

Whilst behind the scenes inner turmoil lies and pain cheated on feeling a fool

Life passes by faster each day and many things will challenge us along the way

A real time adventure with nothing and everything to lose so be ready to play

The clock is ticking and we are all magicians, illusionists, which ever fits best

So let us be honest if we are really frank not many of us are up to the test

Maybe I am a dreamer, an idealistic fool! But if we were all honest wouldn’t it be cool?

No one deceiving or being something they are not everyone happy with what they have got

The problem is we create the monster of greed and envy, hatred and spite

And if we are not careful then the time will come when it is too late to put it right

We are the same just different by circumstance; if we work together, we still have a chance

Freedom of speech human rights let us stop before we turn out all the lights

Why waste time or money, when so much can be done shouldn’t it be prosperity for everyone

Fate will decide nowhere to hide judgment will come, a cross to bear for what we have done

Somewhere in my heart there is love

Somewhere in my heart there is love

Somewhere in my heart, there is love

Hands together a prayer to god above

Somewhere in my soul, there is space

A tranquil and splendid harmonious place

Through my eye’s many things are seen!

A beauty so unique, magnificent and serene

Through my ears resonates the sweetest sound

Within your waters of love I am lost & found

The air that I breathe, the blood through my veins

Bereft of you, only emptiness remains

Unrequited love, lost in the mail! No return to sender

Without hope and belief, the battle is lost complete surrender

Where you lead, I will always follow

When you go, I am empty and hollow

The hand that guides me through the deepest mire

Your touch awakens and ignites my desire

When battle commences I shall not hide

Where you lay, I will be by your side

The feel of your skin as our bodies entwine

Explosion of passion as our hearts combine

When in doubt I will be your guide

There to keep the fire burning inside

Faithful and true nothing; can ever divide

A friend in which you can trust and confide

On my mind forever and a day

Never before, have I ever felt this way

Regardless of obstacles, come what may

Forever I will love you, and in my heart you will stay

My soul is not broken

Unknown Soldier

My soul is not broken, but I am weak

Filled with words though unable to speak

Wounded and bowed, the cut’s run deep

Battle scarred and weary, in need of sleep

Fighting a cause that seems to be lost

Standing until the end to count the cost

One man’s war against an army of many

Not sure if help will come, if any

Inside the trench I have some reprieve

For fallen comrades I must wait to grieve

Into the fray out of the trenches and over the top

Deafening sound of Machine guns, when will it stop?

Moving forward through the smoke and the screams

The chilling echo of a generations dying dreams

Disorientated and confused trying to find cover

Across the battlefield bodies lie on top of one another

Numb and cold trying to keeping emotions in check

But behind the mask lie’s a nervous wreck

Running on empty only courage and grit will keep us going

Hoping we will see our families again, but never truly knowing

Close quarter fighting, exchanging blows hand to hand

Moving forward on the orders of command

Gaining ground the enemy in organized retreat

Offering prayers that our mission will soon be complete

Night fall again and silence falls across the land

A chance to rest and regroup before our final stand

Morning breaks and silence is broken once again

The fighting continues with the few that remain

After so many month’s, week’s, day’s, hour’s min’s and seconds

Finally within our grasp the chance of victory beckons

As we engage, forging ahead each blow we strike, each step we tread

Upon our shoulders the weight of expectation, lest we forget the dead

Though nothing is certain in the cauldron of war

Our destiny is written of this I am completely sure

If victory and peace is to be the outcome of our final act

Let us pray that what we achieve will forever remain intact

Meaningless?

MEANINGLESS?

Words and emotions, it’s all the same

These tools used as part of their game

Flowing compliments you want to believe

In the cold light of day foolishly naïve

Building you up but, for their own ends

No crystal ball to see what each one intends

Same old flannel to put you off guard

Toying with your feelings total disregard

Hindsight takes a holiday oblivious to the fact

Unable to see the warning signs, slow to react

Taking what they can, giving little in return

You’d think by now, surely you’d learn

Honesty and trust that once was a given

Now replaced by deceit, lie and derision

There to be used when occasions arise

To boost their ego or self-importance, which ever applies!

Forget the saying “sticks & stones” for words can hurt

Vicious tongues that rub your face in the dirt

Forget the where’s, why’s and endless lies

And in our judgment be more careful and wise

Each day a new chapter is waiting to be written

A new love with which to be totally smitten

Love is not something that can be defined by time or rules

For in the realm of love we are all helpless fools

Be yourself and the rest will take care of itself

Avoid worry and stress and things that will damage your health

Easy though in theory but so hard to follow through

Always remember life is what you make it, so be careful what you do

when you rise

WHEN YOU RISE

In the morning when you rise

Awakened by sunlight open your eyes

Look to your side and what do you see

A life less ordinary or the person with whom you want to be

Can you live each day dying inside?

Forever living in denial in shadows hide

A life of regret is a painful fate

It is your decision, but decide before it is too late

You say it is over but find it hard to move on

But is it worth it for something precious to be gone

However long you leave it the message won’t sink in

The water is deep but the ice is getting thin

Each night apart my heart slowly dying

Without your tender kiss and touch, these tears I’m crying

Longing to hold you driving to be by your side

Stolen moments always having to hide

Leaving you behind I struggle to breathe

Still with my heart and love I believe

I know you are true and love me so

How much we are worth in your answer will show

Every trick used to win you back

He will never give up, hoping you will take him back

Are you strong enough to act on what you believe?

Or are trying, but flattering to deceive

When we speak it’s, one step forward three steps back

We have to be strong if we are to remain on track

He will never be able to make you as happy as I will

So make the break and stop living a lie

Our life together can only begin when it is done

Then and only then will our hearts truly beat as one

Happiness is something that cannot be wasted

So come to me and enjoy the greatest love ever tasted

I haven't a clue

I haven’t a clue

Why I am here, I wish I knew

Troubled waters wading through

Everyday understanding less

I haven’t a clue I have to confess

What am I searching for, what do I seek?

Endless toil left feeling weary and weak

Is there a plan does fate hold the key

Or is it just pot luck, what will be will be

Can I get a refund or have another go

I could be cheeky but I’m sure the answer would be no

Trying to understand but losing the plot

Perfect aim but always missing the spot

Going so well you think you have got it sussed

However, reality hits leaving you feeling nonplused

Did I miss something am I going insane

Going steady, now I feel like a runaway train

Stuck at a crossroads I cannot decide

Nothing seems to work, I wish I could hide

Whatever I do, I feel like I am cursed

My brain is in meltdown and ready to burst

Dotting the I’s and crossing the T’s

But sometimes I cannot see the wood for the trees

Great in preparation but often lacking in execution

I wish I knew where to go to find the solution

Back to the drawing board starting again

I have come too far for it to all be in vain

Sometimes what we want to achieve is hard to attain

Our journey is long with much heartache and pain

A Wiseman once said if you believe you will find

Not all is what it seems, understand or be blind

Whatever the answer I know one thing to be true

I will succeed and to the end, I will see it through

So I never have to say again I haven’t a clue 

hypothetically speaking

  

HYPOTHETICALLY SPEAKING

Big posh house money to spend cars lined up end to end

Butler waiter staff by the dozen, no one upon which to depend

Extensive gardens beautifully ornate low maintenance not much tweaking

Just think of what you could have hypothetically speaking

Filled with lavish opulence priceless gems treasures to behold

Priceless artifacts, paintings, sculptures, statues of pure gold

Everything to perfection attention to detail nothing left to chance

Every single item just as it should be without the song and dance

Executive lifestyle high-powered job with salary to match

Country cottage retreat with roses and decorative thatch

18 holes of golf or, a weekends fishing in your own private lake

Football, tennis, so many choices a really tough decision to make

Fine dining spoilt for choice somewhere new every time

The most exquisite of meals accompanied by a gorgeous wine

Chauffeured limousine on to a show, “top west end play”

Evenings end retire for the night the finest hotel in which to stay

Holiday’s abroad no-where too remote, destination anywhere

By boat, rail, car, or private jet if you want to arrive without a care

Lavish hotels with only the finest of things from which to choose

Casino’s playing blackjack, slots, poker whatever you fancy you never lose

Pampered to perfection massage, steam room or relaxing in the sauna

Reading a paper or magazine, reclining on soft leather chair quietly in the corner

Whatever your wish your every desire, nothing too big nothing too small

Put quite simply whatever your heart desires, you can have it all

In addition, don’t forget that little something put away for that future rainy day

Forget all that remember whatever you want is at your disposal anyway

Just think all of this and more so finely tuned never having to do any tweaking

It would be amazing but let us not forget after all we are only hypothetically speaking

winter magic

Winter magic

Falling softly, snow upon the ground

Lying gently makes no sound.

Purest white, against the darkest night

A picture postcard, such a beautiful sight

Footprints left leave a trail.

Faces numb cold and pale

Building snowmen and having fun.

A time of great excitement for all

Throwing snowballs then running away.

Friends and family happily play.

Snowboards, sledges whatever you can find.

Going at speed and crashing on your behind.

Excitement and thrill adrenalin ride.

Butterflies, beaming smiles happy inside

Back and forth again and again

Are we just mad or merely insane?

Time to go, back home we trudge.

Who was the best not easy to judge.

Clothes wet/dirty into machine.

Off for a shower/bath, scrub ourselves clean.

A wonderful day almost at the end

But did it go the way some might intend.

Ready for bed, time to sleep, looking ahead.

Warm and cosy wrapped up in bed.

Dreaming of the events of the day

Reliving each moment in our own special way

What tomorrow will bring who can say?

Hoping for another fun filled day. 

puzzletive

PUZZLETIVE

Standing confused, dazed totally bemused

I think I’ve gone mad. May I please be excused?

Left perplexed, dumbfounded unable to speak

If nothing else, that is something quite unique

When logic takes an extended absence of leave

We are left faced with things that are hard to believe

Normal understanding and rules do-not apply

Do you try to understand or give up & wonder why

How can this be the voice inside your head cries?

However, when faced with the situation we can only surmise

Like an illusion things are not always, as they would appear to be

Even with our eyes open, it is not always clear to see

The situation presents and puts on a show, did that just happen?

I think I saw what I thought I saw but I’m damned if I know

Feeling embarrassed we pretend that we understand

Unwilling to admit we were fooled by tricks or sleight of hand

Overawed by the spectacular blinded by the glamour and glitz

More easily understood when broken down into bits

Looking outside of the box rather than believing what we see

Is the only way to set yourself puzzletively free?

Sometimes so confused my mind feels like a perpetual blender

Many things swirling around, I wish I could just return them to sender

To make sense of the things we experience and the things that we see

Is not always as easy as it would appear to be

Life is challenging in so many ways leaving you sometimes lost in a haze

Giving you nightmares and endless headaches that last for day’s

The answer is not always as at first we perceive, approach with doubt and caution

The answers are out there but we must always keep things in proportion